Feeling Hot Hot Hot!!

It's so become summer here in LA, and I love it!! The hot air that envelopes you and makes you sweat, the car being well over 120 degrees upon entry, the inability to sleep at night because the air is so thick it makes it difficult to breathe...ah..wait, what am i saying? ha ha. ok yes, i do love summer and for some reason in my head i still think that i'm in school. I'm like yes i can't wait for summer, i'm going to go to the beach everyday and i'm going to go shopping and...hold the phone i have a big kid job..oh crap! I can't go to the beach everyday, i can barely make it there on a weekend cause i gotta get the oil changed, get groceries, clip my nails...ahaha the list never ends. I use to love the first few weeks of summer break when i would suddenly get those panic attacks about having a paper to write and then i would remember...no i am on break! But now, as my alarm goes off i realize that i can't just skip school, i have to go to work. I think Peter Pan was right in never wanting to grow old, I mean aside from being able to drink legally, what does a 25 year old have on a 15 year old? and even then you could drink, just not legally. As i begin to ponder this question i realize that maybe i have lost my youth..maybe i wasted it away thinking that things were going to get better and life was going to be amazing...maybe my life was amazing at 17, maybe that's when i hit my peak! If so...it's going to be a long journey down hill...crap!